25 October 2016
22 October 2016
the following r my thoughts on a scripture that has made a very large impact in my life. i pray this often so i can let God clean out anything that keeps His passion from being made flesh in my life. i pray that it comes alive as u read it so u can be cleansed by the blood covering of Christ Jesus and silence the accuser.
Psalm 139:23-24 NASBS
 Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts;  And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasting way.
remember to live a life surrendered to God. be open to God so He can make flesh His passion in my life.
"search me" ~ allow God to search thru the many rooms in my life. we all have at least one room that we keep hidden from everyone, even God.
this room is usually filled with the stuff that holds us back from really living. it definitely filters everything i do, say, think, and act out.
"know my heart" ~ find out who i am.
often times we don't really know who we r ourselves. and that comes from that one room we hide from everyone.
in order for us to know who we really r, God needs to search thru that room and remove everything that holds us back from finding out.
"try me" ~ make judgement on what God finds in me.
allow God to judge whether the stuff He finds is worth keeping or throwing out.
"know my anxious thoughts" ~ be willing to let God see how scared i really am.
my fears r real. all i have to go on is past experience which causes anxious thoughts. not knowing also causes this. however, surrendering to God these anxious thoughts opens me up to God's calming peace.
"see if there be any hurtful way in me" ~ am i out for revenge? do i want to 'get back at the one who caused me the hurt'?
God will expose this.
i need to be willing to forgive. forgiveness is the key that starts the healing of the hurt that holds us back. God will do only what i allow Him to do. it is up to me to let Him do what He does best.
now all that is needed is for u to "face the Judge", ask for the blood covering of the Lamb so He can render His verdict. once that is done, ask God to make flesh His passion in your life.
one other thing, prayer becomes much more real as u see God answering in ways u have not experienced before. it's becuz u have silenced the accuser in Court of Heaven.
16 October 2016
12 October 2016
I have a number of friends who served in Vietnam. One thing that seems to be a common thread for all of them is their inability to rid themselves of flashbacks — a sudden recall of the past that feels so real it’s as if they were transported back to the scene. Some flashbacks are of war atrocities, others are a living terror beyond my comprehension, while still others are sweet memories of people who were freed or rescued. . . .
The fact of the matter is that many of us in a career transition suffer from our own set of paralyzing flashbacks. Although they aren’t war-related, they are just as real and debilitating. Most of the time they sneak up on us in the form of fear, rejection or inadequacy.
I confess this is an area I still struggle with. I often suffer from flashbacks of the fear and anxiety associated with the day I was terminated. . . .The result is always the same — the pain is revisited. It hurt inside when I experienced my first flashback, and it continues to hurt every time one hits.
While reading 1 John 4:18, it occurred to me that the deeper, underlying problem I wrestle with is fear. Fear of revisiting the past. Fear of having to relive all of the tough times. I know in my head that the Lord has closed the door to the past. So why am I still dwelling on it? The answer is that I haven’t embraced the promise that “perfect love drives out fear” — in my heart. It’s like I’m living my life waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Now when I experience a fear-producing flashback, I remind myself that “fear has to do with punishment” and that “there is no fear in love.” Furthermore, I focus on the fact that I have been and am well loved by Jesus, and I know the Lord would not rub my face in my fears. That leaves only one option as to the source of these flashbacks: The devil would just love for me to dwell on the sorrows of the past and to take my mind off of the love and grace I have in Christ. This is why Peter, who knew something about fear and regret (remember how he denied Jesus), warns, “Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour” (1 Peter 5:8).
Are you wresting with flashbacks that wound so deeply that you find yourself unable to face the day? Are flashbacks of your termination neutralizing your will and your confidence to approach another potential employer? If so, it’s time to call upon the Lord once again, because he alone gives you and me the strength to resist the devil. Then praise the Lord that his perfect love drives out all of our fears.
Taken from Why Did I Lose My Job if God Loves Me?
in May2007 my job was eliminated by technology.
01 October 2016
i have been wondering y our situation has to carry on over the holidays and into next year. this is what i believe to be God answering me.
building my faith is important to God and for some reason, i am in need of something that i hope to figure out as i wait. patience is something is something i have to live with every day. so the full reasoning of needing more patience is not yet clear to me. i will let God do His thing as i will be willing to learn and live out His work in me.
What else can i do? nothing else will give me any satisfication.
the following is taken from one of my devotions: CELEBRATE!